My Addiction

When you have an addiction, the key is to admit that you have a problem. Well.... here's mine: I am addicted to this one online shopping portal. Just in a single click couple of hours later a sweaty ojek driver landed at my doorstep with paint, brush, canvas, paint thinner and turpentine. Who doesnt want that? 😂

See.. i am a lazy person. I love the finer things in life, including what convenience can give. It matters the most to us (or at least to me). Goods delivered in the snap of a finger. I cant believe i used to physically go to stores and take money from my purse to pay for stuff like a peasant. With a click i have things delivered to me like I'm a khaleesi 👸😂

So tonight i want to make the most of this so called Harbolnas and lay around in my comfy couch while surfing the shopping portal. I will be waiting impatiently for another ojek driver to arrive at my doorstep.

Long Story Short, I'm Still Alive and Running

Regardless of my test result, regardless of my physical condition. My Neurologist said my condition should not prevent me from doing what I love, including running. So yeah, still breathing and running. Still very much alive and living the life that I love.

Again, I love running, not for the social part. Not for the show-off part. Bur mostly because I enjoy the pain it caused during the run, the alone time and the feeling that I get after a good long run.

Pain?
Not only normal people, insane creatures like runners feel the pain too, you know.
We feel miserable like half of the time during our running sessions. So what's with the adoration to pain and misery? Are runners masochists? Perhaps :D

Non-runners often ask: why do you still run if you feel miserable? It's the result that embracing the challenge of pain and misery that serve as one of the most valuable parts of experience. The feeling that we conquer the pain and misery is unbeatable. Being able to go through pain and misery successfully and alive is a confidence booster.

Sure, we also enjoy the occasional gasp from friends and family.

It's a confidence booster as well, that non-runners think of us as creatures who enjoy and can endure frequent pain and misery. We kinda feel like a: BADASS!

You Can Call Her Queen Bee

Eat or be eaten seem to fit in almost every aspect of our life. Friendship certainly cant avoid this. Girls, hell.. women competing to be the most influential (at least in small groups) is channeling Gossip Girl.

The Queen Bee throne is getting more and more attractive to some. There's always Blair Waldorf and Serena. But there's also a Georgina Sparks and the out of place Jenny Humphrey. It's hard to decide who is the bitchiest of all.

Perhaps we should all take a good look in the mirror.